“Your Whole Life” is a song I originally wrote for someone in my life who went through the loss of a pregnancy – and ultimately for anyone who’s had to carry that kind of grief quietly while the world kept moving. It’s so easy to feel so alone when you experience that kind of grief. I wanted to make anyone going through it feel seen and loved.
This one took me a while. I rewrote the lyrics more than once, changed the melody, changed the guitar part — the whole thing got rebuilt a few times. Not because I couldn’t finish it… but because I didn’t want to share it until it felt like it was doing what it was supposed to do: honoring the person it was written for, and honoring everyone else who’s lived through this kind of loss.
Your Whole Life — Lyrics
From the moment she gets home
Her tears fall like pouring rain
All alone in the dark
Wishing she could feel those little feet again
And as the calls are made
She drops her eyes
And says I carried you for your whole life
And I’ll love you for the rest of mine
When her dream finally came true
She felt the flood of joyful tears
It was all she’d ever wanted
Something she’d dreamed about for all these years
And now she’s missing a life inside
She knew so well but would never get to hear cry
And says I carried you for your whole life
And I’ll love you for the rest of mine
And now she sits and prays
That this time won’t be the same
And everything be ok
Because another one is on the way
But she won’t forget her first
As she looks off and says
I know we never really met
But I promise you’ll always belong
And just because I’m moving forward
Doesn’t mean I’m moving on
Cause I carried you for your whole life
And I’ll love you for the rest of mine
Yes I carried you for your whole life
And I’ll love you for the rest of mine